I think if I stop laughing, I`ll start crying....and never stop.

WHAT??!!!!!!!!!!!

Yesterday was an off the chart suckful day....yesterday sucked, no doubt about it, today HAS to be better.

TODAY I was GOING TO take the girls to school, pick up some stuff in town that I didn`t get yesterday, drop Dan and Shyla at the pictures and go home and do some gardening-Ben`s a landscaper, he brings home the excess plants and grass `n stuff, so I`ve just recently gotten a huge pile of evergreen bulbs I`m dying to put in.

I got up at 7ish, had a coffee, then a shower, the girls had finished getting ready for school, off we go!

Yay! Ben had had the truck going last night, so in theory it SHOULD start, but we had a back up plan, if it didn`t start, we`d roll start it, Dan and Shyla are here, so it won`t be hard, Ben told me which way to get them to push me if I needed it, so all is good in the world, yeah?

This is my world remember....

The truck doesn`t start, I`m cool with it, keep trying, flatten the battery. I can see a pattern emerging here, I`m NOT letting it get to me...nope. I smile and say, we`ll go inside, I`ll have another coffee then try again, if it doesn`t go then I`ll get Dan up and he can give me a push.

I come inside, have a coffee, I`m feelin good about today :D it`s just testing me to make sure I don`t react like yesterday, kind of like a ground hog day thing, I`m being re-presented with the lesson because I didn`t deal with it yesterday, I even start to make plans in my head of how i`ll make the most of the day if the truck doesn`t end up starting, but I AM starting to wonder what the reason would be that none of us are to leave our place by our own will. We`re obviously all meant to just stay put for a while if this keeps presenting itself. I start to wonder what I might have done for this to be a Karmic reaction, is it Mercury? Have I upset "someone?" I`m pondering theories anyway...

I go out to the truck again, I wind it flat.

Our driveway has slopes every side of it, so I tell the girls to push me backward toward the slope then let me go, i`ll drop the clutch and we`ll be on our way. They push me over the slope, I drop the clutch, the truck splutters and stall. I let it roll back a bit more, try again, it splutters.

I pull up about 3/4 of the way down the hill, Dan comes out with Shyla and says he`ll push me, I say no, if I go too far back we`ll never get the truck back up the hill if it won`t start, ok lets push it back UP the hill.

Great idea. I almost wiped out my entire family in one go, the minute I let the handbrake off the truck rolled straight back onto them, I pull on the handbrake, **** that I reckon, I`ll just get the battery out my other car (that Dan wrote off), chuck it in the truck and it`ll all be good.

I spend the next two hours with my head under the bonnet of the truck, getting batteries out, putting batteries in, and BREAKING THE FUCKING BATTERY TERMINAL in the process.

Alrighty.... deep breaths.... this is a TEST, I obviously have to work harder, I go inside and have another coffee. Deep breaths.

I can do this.