I`m over it. Everything can get f*cked from me.

I wanna know WHAT THE **** I`VE DONE SO BAD for the Universe to be dishing THIS SHIT out to me????????

RAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ok break it down.

We attract energy right? So if we`ve got ****ED UP energy, then it`s our own fault agreed?

*nods*

So what if we DON`T KNOW OUR ENERGIES ****ED???? THEN WHAT HUH????

I got in the truck this morning to take Bek to the bus stop, I decided I`d go into the chemist while I was active then I could just get on with my day, so I drop Bek off, wave....Nat stayed with me cos she`s having an anxiety thing going on about school so we`re going to the school to sort that out, so me and Nat head off into town. Yay today rocks doesn`t it!

It`s Friday the 13th! Good energy day! Everyone else in the world is focusing on bad luck so I take the opportunity to draw on GOOD energy cos there`d be heaps of it around wouldn`t there?!!!

****en oath there would be :D

We get about 13 KILOMETRES up the road, PAST THE ROAD WORKS, cruisin along.....CLANG....CLANG...****EN BANG!!!

The truck stops, and I mean it stops. Seizes, dies, smoke, noise, ****en death. It stops.

There I sit on the side of the ****ing highway, with just socks on my feet cos I`m ONLY GOING INTO THE CHEMIST, Nat with her pyjamas on, I`ve got NO ****ING CREDIT on my phone and I`m 13k`s from home.

Oh and it`s 7 o'clock in the morning AND FREEZING ****ING COLD.

How grande. I love being me.

So out we jump, and begin the trek home, past the road workers, in my WET SOCKS now, Nat in her jammies, alllllllllll the way home..like 2 ****ING HOURS WALK HOME.

I fell through a fence, I got caught on a ****ing fence and ripped the crutch out of my pants and a hole out of my thigh and I got a spider on me.

SO NOW here I sit with no ****ing car and no washing machine - which has nothing to do with anything, now I`m just feeling sorry for myself! And I`m really unhappy.

I`m attracting this energy to myself, it wouldn`t be around me if I wasn`t and with the shit luck I`ve been having I have to wonder WHAT THE ****?!

I`m analyzing everything and I don`t know what I`m doing wrong. I`ve got absolutely no idea. I`m a good person, I`ve been good - well the best I know how to be which is pretty ****ing good for me. I cleansed myself in a waterfall last weekend, I had the signs telling me that I`m surrounded by new energy, so what the ****???

All my cards are telling me is I have to let go of some ****ing thing or thought, well WHAT???

****.

I just don`t know. I know that I`ve never had this much shit luck energy before.

What I do know is I`m OVER IT.

I`ve mirrored myself, I`ve cut ****en energy cords, I`ve done everything just incase it`s someone elses energy ****ing with my shit.

I keep thinking I have an idea what`s going on, but I don`t, I change my mindset, I got organised, I re arranged my WHOLE ****ING HOUSE and put everything in the exact opposite direction to what it was in the hopes of the energy turning around.

I`m sad and I`m sorry for myself! It`s very hard to keep a positive outlook sometimes you know.

Even the Universe is taking advantage of my good nature.

BLAH!