I`m sulking and feeling sorry for myself and now it`s been turned around and I`M the brat, now I have to wonder IF I am.

Ok, so the truck died this morning, now we`re faced with the question which vehicle do we fix?

The truck so far has had everything fixed, now ALL it needs is a new engine, drivers side door and back window.

My car needs cosmetic surgery - 2 front panels, a bonnet and rego. Other than that it`s mechanically sound.

We have the money to do ONE.

I vote for the car, Ben for the truck.

Bens reasons for the truck are - easy off road accessible for woodcarting......and other off road things? And that once the engine is in it, it`ll go forever.

Mine for the car are - it`s less than 10 years old, it`s a "family" car, it`s a nice car, a reliable car, it can travel distances, it WILL last forever cos it`s young, and have I mentioned it`s a f*cking nice car? Well it is.

Cosmetically the truck is f*cked. The interior is torn, worn and f*cked. It gets treated with very little respect cos it can go off road, so f*ck it, if you get bogged just cover the whole thing in mud, who cares? Is the general attitude. There`s mud `n shit right through it, like worn into it.

Exterior wise, well it`s a four wheel drive, an old one - like 1987 model. It`s spent its whole life in the bush being taken off road `n shit. You do the math.

I think Ben`s being selfish, he`s not thinking about us as a family group, he thinks he is cos he can get wood.

Yeah it`s nice in SUmmer driving with the top off and yeah I feel "tuff" when I drive it cos it`s a "boys" truck, but I feel good when I drive my car too, it`s stylish and classy.

The thing is, we can only get one fixed, the other we can`t afford to have fixed so it will be sold in favour of buying something cheaper, whether it be a car or a truck, whichever goes.

I like them both but I prefer my car. Mainly for materialistic reasons, but f*ck...it`s a NICE car!

And worth a PILE more than the truck and probably cheaper on petrol.

So I`m sulking because I`m not getting my own way. Is THIS the attitude I have to lose?

I`ve lived in shit in my life and driven shit in my life, I LIKE nice things, not extravagant(can`t even spell it), just nice things.

I dunno.

Am I a brat?