You know what, I`ve been busting to get back here and share my shit, I finally get some peace and quiet, sitting with a coffee, fire crackling in the background......only to find there`s SO F*CKING MUCH IN MY HEAD I`ve got no idea where to start....

The beginning?

Blah.

We moved back to our home town....Me, Ben, Dan, Shyla, Bek `n Nat.

Ok...you know what.. it`s f*cken crazy...this whole thing... everything that`s been going on and I tell ya what... I`M GETTING TOO F*CKING OLD FOR THIS SHIT!

Alrighty...we decided on the Friday afternoon that I got f*cked over with the truck we bought that we`d put the energy "out there" as to whether we should move back home, everything seemed to have a starting f*ck up point of when we moved back into my old place that I`d shared with my ex, I loved the place, it had the best energy ever, but mundane things were constantly f*cking up, as you all know...so we put the energy out there that afternoon.

Right.

Ok, as you all would also know, I`d lost the thingy I needed to attach my phone to the comp so I could upload pics....abut an hour after we "put the energy out there", the thingy turned up underneath the table...just sitting there in full view, so I was quite happy and started uploading the pictures I wanted.

I found some I`d taken a few weeks ago or whenever of my ouija board with a dead spider on it, I took the pic cos it was just after I moved all my furniture opposite to what it had been in the hopes of my "luck" changing, I took it as a sign of rebirth...skeleton...death...rebirth.."we are the syders, we are the thread" type symbology....

So I`m looking at my uploaded pics of the spider and f*ck me if the words didn`t just jump out of the board at me....the words "yes move 12"

I shit you not...see it with your own peepers...

 It`s a board I made for myself a few years back, I`ve never used it for anything, just had it as my own thing, where it says move, it`s actually m n o, it`s the fancy curves that make the word...

So hows THAT...who would argue about that being a huge in your face mother f*cker of a sign....

SO...we moved..by the time we got our shit together, found a house via the internet to lease, put in applications etc...it was 12 days after we put the energy out there that we signed our lease.

Things were so easy to move it was crazy...we found a house straight away, got approved no problems....ex hubby paid me out so we had the cash to move....everything was so f*cking easy...like it had been planned like...eternity ago.

We were definately meant to leave that house, and that state.

So here I sit in our new place, in a new state, in my old home town.

It`s crazy.

I`ve got 500 more things to elaborate on....I don`t even believe my life is as crazy at it is....but hey...

I`m alive! :D