I did a reading this morning, the first card to fall from the deck was The Chariot. I raised my eyebrows and called the next card, wondering if I was carrying someone elses energy, it couldn`t be mine, the furtherest thing from my personal or surrounding energy was the energy of the Chariot.
The Chariot. Pfft. Indeed.
It was such a peaceful, organised day.
Ben got off to work, the girls to school, Shyla to work (she lives with us now), Dan had the day off and I went to the library.
Life has been so full of positive directions in the last month that I`ve barely had time to catch my breath.
By this afternoon I was onto it, Ben was home, Shyla got off early so Dan and Ben went to pick her up (1 1/2 hour return trip), the girls weren`t due from the bus for 2 hours, so I had some comfy time to myself.
It was overcast and drizzling rain outside, the fire inside was crackling quietly, combined with the sound of rain falling on our tin roof, I was in a state of pure comfort and contentment.
I made a coffee, got my pad and pen, curled up on the lounge and started to write.
Little dog started barking madly, which is something he only does if there`s a strange car or person here. I sighed and put down my pen.
There was a quiet knock on the front door, I had no idea who it would be, very few people ever turn up here unannounced.
1. Cos it`s a long way to come for no reason if there isn`t anybody home, and
2. I have no friends, none that would just call by anyway.
Before I even got off the lounge I knew it was the Plod (Police).
I had a "car thing" with them a few weeks ago, which I`d called the station and spoken to them about on Friday, "Constable phone answerer" told me I would "maybe" get a notice of "failure to comply with police direction", so I presumed the "maybe" had grown over the weekend in a definate, hence them being on my doorstep.
I smiled brightly, wishing for a milisecond that I hadn`t had that joint while I`d made my coffee, opened the door and say in my best stoned voice "HI!" :D
Which actually came out as "Heeeeyy", looking at them through sleepy eyes.
Then it turned up.
The Chariot and its energy came crashing down upon me and the surrounding energy.
*sigh*
Constable "I`m the boss" tells me they`re investigating an assault that occured in the estate a few months ago, they have information that the "attackers" live here, do I know anything about it?
Fuuuck. I SO wish I didn`t have that joint now.
"I know what you`re talking about, I know who lives here and I can`t help you with anything else sorry", I reply guardedly.
Constable "I wish I WAS the boss" asks "Where`s the 4 wheel drive that was parked down there?" and pointed to where the truck was parked when I ran it backward through the fence - OVER A MONTH AGO!
Snooping lil ****ers aren`t they.
"The boys have it" I reply
"Who`s the boys?" asks the plod
"The boys you`re here about" I reply
"Ben and Daniel?" Constable Super Intelligence asks
I wink at him "you`re all over it aren`t you."
We establish who and where the boys are, they give me a business card, tell me to get Ben to call them and off they ****.
I spend the next hour and a half STRESSING THE **** OUT, waiting for the boys to get home. They get home, Ben calls Constable "I`m the boss" who casually tells him he`s busy at the moment but will get back to him and hangs up.
Just a quick note to all my awesome friends here that have emailed me - missin me `n stuff!
Thankyou beautiful people!! :D That makes my heart so happy!!!
My computer has shit itself, so i come into the library a few days a week but it`s SO hard to write my thoughts `n stuff in a sterile room with someone sitting next to me!
Kinda like doin "the job" at a sperm bank i`m guessin, the mood just isn`t happenin!
I`ve got allllll the Nimbin stuff to catch up on too!
And of course being me, a pile of other shit that`s been goin on!!
I`ve posted most the pics `n shit, that`s easy to do without a mood :P
I`m a gunna write my shit out at home when I have a spare minute, and the "mood", then I`ll copy it up here.
After all the activity that I`ve had go on in my life this week, well this year, this lifetime...whatever way you want to look at it, I`m going away for the weekend. :D
To Nimbin! Any Aussies here will know what I`m talking about, you should google it if you`ve never heard of it, it`s a great place!
They have a weekend every year promoting freedom, freedom of alot of things, the right to smoke dope being one of them, so it`s a hippy-ish place.
The weekend is called the Mardi Grass, in honour of the great weed. Bens best mate Nathan, is the Mayors son, and we`re staying there! How fun!! They have THE best parties `n shit.
I`m excited :D
We`ve got Bens work truck for the weekend, we`ll probably camp in the back of that in our swags.
The girls, Dan and Shyla are coming too, the girls are used to it, we`ve been a few times before, Shyla`s never been, so it`ll be an eye opener for her!
Incidentally i`m being "ground hog dayed" again.....this EXACT time last year Ben and I broke up, I was still in bandages and couldn`t walk, he went to Nimbin, I stayed home, it turned to shit very quickly from there on in. It was also this time last year I was at the lowest point I`ve ever been in my life, ever.
I was a bad person, REALLY yucky person actually.
NOW is our chance at Nimbin, the way it SHOULD have been, I`m SO looking forward to it.
I`m just going to relax, chill out and enjoy the atmosphere, what a great time for it to come.
Lovin it.
I`ll update when I get back, and have heaps of pics no doubt.
Would you believe I`m going to an underground rave!! I didn`t think those things existed, we don`t even get told where it is till it`s on. THATS exciting!!!!
Have a funky weekend my lovely friends, chill out and take a moment to think of how beautiful it is to be alive.
Of course I can do this, I can do anything :D You just watch.
I`ll STUFF the wires into whats left of the terminal and screw it all together on then bang it on the battery :D
Ha!
AND I won`t even need to call Ben.
Fuck I`m good.
Off I go, on my mission and it WORKED, the battery had spark, it was still flat as fuck, but it was connected.
Ok, lets try a different approach at push starting it, we all agree that if I line it up right, I`ll make it through the clearing of trees and SHOULD start it if I get enough speed up. Ok, kids at the front.....PUSH.
It splutters....it splutters some more.....I`m re dropping the clutch every splutter, pumping the accelerator.... rolling backwards at a now quite fast speed....NEARLY got it....BANG.
A fucken tree. You`ve gotto be kidding me. I rolled into a fucking tree.
We stand around examining the situation we are now faced with.... I start giggling...this is fucked big time. I go back inside and have another coffee.
Allllllrighty, there HAS to be a way around this. If only the tree wasn`t there! I could probably get it started if I could roll back just that WEE BIT further.....It`s only a small tree.....thin trunk.
Fuck it, lets cut the tree down.
Dan grabs a shovel and digs the tree out.....kind of...well, he mutilated the fucken tree, it was horrible, but for a greater good of course, the girls said thankyou to the tree :D we`re all cool.
Trees gone, ok we`ve got ONE MORE try, this is IT, if we don`t get it this time we`re fucked. Dan puts the shovel in the ground to mark the spot that I should have enough speed up for it to kick over, about a metre before the fence separating us from the neighbouring property, he gives me the pep talk, I`m ready to do it. The kids line up at the front of the car, I put my hand on the park brake, pull it off, give the thumbs up and everyone pushes with all their might...... I`m movin backwards pretty fucking quick..... I get to the shovel...drop the clutch...IT STARTS!!!!!!! Fucken YAY!
Everyone`s smiling from ear to ear, Nat`s clapping.....they`re all standing right in front of me, and I`m wondering WHY THE FUCK I`M STILL GOING BACKWARDS AT A CATAPULTING SPEED????????????
Everyones faces go from pure delight, to absolute horror as I, who had the truck in REVERSE with my foot flat on the accelerator drive BACKWARDS STRAIGHT THROUGH OUR NEIGHBOURS FENCE coming to a stop when the wire from the fence would stretch no more, having pulled out four timber posts already, ready to snap....the truck stalls.
WHO THE FUCK PUT THE TRUCK IN REVERSE??????????????
I lost the the fucking plot, I busted out laughing so hard that it still gives me a psychotic eye twitch, dead fucking set.
Everyone comes running over to the truck, pulling tree branches from the roof and looking at the wire my truck was now hostage to.... we all end up crying with laughter.
NOW we need to get the truck out of the fence....we end up getting wire cutters and cutting it out...it`s kinda nice I think, the whole "share the neighbours yard" thing.....
Now lets get the truck OUT of the neighbours paddock....it`s allll downhill from here so give it another push, I`ll get a good speed up....you know the rest.
We got a good speed up, I even had it in first gear this time.....I forgot to turn the key on.
The truck is now in the MIDDLE of the neighbours paddock, at the bottom of a big hill.... When she gets home I`ll go and explain why my truck is in her house paddock and how it got there.
Oh and I rang Ben too....I told him I had good news and not so flash news...
Good news - I broke the battery but I fixed it too!
He says - awesome
Not so flash news - I still can`t start the truck, could you deal with it when you get home pleeeeeease?
He says - "sure baby, don`t let it fuck with you ok."
I say - I won`t, I might mow the lawns. Have a good day ok.
We hung up and here I sit.
How hectic is this shit?! What the fuck IS going on? This shit doesn`t just happen.......
I`ve done something or haven`t done something...
This is sooooo ground hog day..... the never ending fucking saga of this truck!!!!
I think if I stop laughing, I`ll start crying....and never stop.
WHAT??!!!!!!!!!!!
Yesterday was an off the chart suckful day....yesterday sucked, no doubt about it, today HAS to be better.
TODAY I was GOING TO take the girls to school, pick up some stuff in town that I didn`t get yesterday, drop Dan and Shyla at the pictures and go home and do some gardening-Ben`s a landscaper, he brings home the excess plants and grass `n stuff, so I`ve just recently gotten a huge pile of evergreen bulbs I`m dying to put in.
I got up at 7ish, had a coffee, then a shower, the girls had finished getting ready for school, off we go!
Yay! Ben had had the truck going last night, so in theory it SHOULD start, but we had a back up plan, if it didn`t start, we`d roll start it, Dan and Shyla are here, so it won`t be hard, Ben told me which way to get them to push me if I needed it, so all is good in the world, yeah?
This is my world remember....
The truck doesn`t start, I`m cool with it, keep trying, flatten the battery. I can see a pattern emerging here, I`m NOT letting it get to me...nope. I smile and say, we`ll go inside, I`ll have another coffee then try again, if it doesn`t go then I`ll get Dan up and he can give me a push.
I come inside, have a coffee, I`m feelin good about today :D it`s just testing me to make sure I don`t react like yesterday, kind of like a ground hog day thing, I`m being re-presented with the lesson because I didn`t deal with it yesterday, I even start to make plans in my head of how i`ll make the most of the day if the truck doesn`t end up starting, but I AM starting to wonder what the reason would be that none of us are to leave our place by our own will. We`re obviously all meant to just stay put for a while if this keeps presenting itself. I start to wonder what I might have done for this to be a Karmic reaction, is it Mercury? Have I upset "someone?" I`m pondering theories anyway...
I go out to the truck again, I wind it flat.
Our driveway has slopes every side of it, so I tell the girls to push me backward toward the slope then let me go, i`ll drop the clutch and we`ll be on our way. They push me over the slope, I drop the clutch, the truck splutters and stall. I let it roll back a bit more, try again, it splutters.
I pull up about 3/4 of the way down the hill, Dan comes out with Shyla and says he`ll push me, I say no, if I go too far back we`ll never get the truck back up the hill if it won`t start, ok lets push it back UP the hill.
Great idea. I almost wiped out my entire family in one go, the minute I let the handbrake off the truck rolled straight back onto them, I pull on the handbrake, **** that I reckon, I`ll just get the battery out my other car (that Dan wrote off), chuck it in the truck and it`ll all be good.
I spend the next two hours with my head under the bonnet of the truck, getting batteries out, putting batteries in, and BREAKING THE FUCKING BATTERY TERMINAL in the process.
Alrighty.... deep breaths.... this is a TEST, I obviously have to work harder, I go inside and have another coffee. Deep breaths.
